November Happenings!

I am hoping that my students, friends, and creative allies, can help me get the word out about some of the really amazing things I am a part of and working on. Thank you so much! Let me know if there is some way I can spread the word about the wonderful things you do too!

Here we are barreling through October already! How fast time flies! As we roll into the holidays and the close of 2014 there is still time for more adventures! 

I am currently booking for November studio classes and local events. If you or someone you know has an interest, please let me know early. Also, I am wondering what interest will be during the typically busy month of December? Would you like to continue to have the studio open to have a calming space to retreat from holiday chaos? 

November and December also bring gift giving to mind. Do you have someone on your nice list with an interest in Bellydance, Tarot, or Writing? Let's work together to give them the perfect gift. 

Here are some of the exciting things already on the calendar for November. See you soon!

Sundays, 10:00 am - 12:00 pm

NaNo Writers

Home Studio, Glendale

Mondays, 6:00 pm - 8:00 pm

Tarot Cafe

Home Studio, Glendale

https://www.facebook.com/ical/event.php?eid=1499147537005027

Thursdays, 4:00 pm - 5:00 pm

Private Lesson

Home Studio, Glendale

Thursdays, 5:00 pm - 6:00 pm

Private Lesson

Home Studio, Glendale

Thursdays, 6:00 pm - 7:00 pm

bint Hazine Student Rehearsal

Home Studio, Glendale

1st, 11:00 am - 4:00 pm

Authorpalooza

Dog-Eared Pages, Phoenix

https://www.facebook.com/events/268682143341265/

1st & 8th, 9:00 am - 11:30 am

Auto Basics for Teens

Rio Vista Recreation Center, Peoria

**Cancelled**

8th, 3:00 pm - 5:00 pm

Untrashed Fashion Show

https://www.facebook.com/untrashedfashionshow

8th, 6:00 pm - 7:00 pm

PAPA

Grand Avenue

https://www.facebook.com/artparade

9th, 4:00 pm - 8:00 pm

BBQ for Writers, Dancers, and Friends

Glendale

15th, 7:00 pm - 10:00 pm

Desert Caravan

Daddy-o's Bar & Grill, Glendale

https://www.facebook.com/DaddyOsDesertCaravanBellydanceDrumCircle

15th & 22nd, 9:00 am - 11:30 am

Auto Basics for Women 

Avondale Recreation Center

** Cancelled **

22nd, 5:00 pm - 10:00 pm

Red Tent

Home Studio, Glendale

https://www.facebook.com/events/596690497126218/

Thank you! Have a wonderful day!

A Very Exciting and Uplifting October

October could be the busiest month so far for me. I am excited, and nervous because I really want to see my classes and events grow. I want to be able to help people with the alternative self care that I offer. I am excited to share some of the amazing events I have planned for the month! There is always time for private bellydance lessons, bellydance gigs and parties, tarot readings in person and online, and of course I am always writing and working on new and exciting projects. Please contact me soon to book for October, November and the Holiday Season! Thank you so much!

October Madness!
Tarot Readings
Metro Center Mall
Mondays, 10am - 9pm
Tuesdays, 10am - 6pm

Bellydance
Foothills Aquatic Center
Tuesdays, 7:10pm - 8:10pm

Bellydance
Rio Vista Recreation Park
Wednesdays, 7:30pm - 8:30pm

Creative Writing
Avondale Recreation Center
Thursdays, 5:30pm - 6:30pm

Bellydance
Avondale Recreation Center
Thursdays, 7pm - 8pm

Tarot Classes
Metro Center Mall
Saturdays, 12pm - 1:30pm

Trolls Book Release
October 6th

Automotive Basics (Ladies Only)
Rio Vista Recreation Center
Saturday 11th & 18th, 9am - 11:30am

Bellydance Workshop (FREE)
Evolve Studio
Friday 17th, 6:30pm - 7:30pm

Red Tent Night (Donations Accepted)
House of Rainbows & Awesome
Thursday 23rd, 6pm - 10pm

Artizona Festival
Sunday 26th, 10am - 4pm

The Clearing

It has been some time since I have posted anything to this particular blog, and while I would like to say that I will be more diligent, there are many other projects also occurring. So, I make no promises. I also, want to offer some brighter news from the front lines.

While I do not feel elated by this, my son has been allowed the opportunity to live with his father for a few months. There is all manner of emotion about this. I miss him. He and I are a team. Even when my now ex husband was away so often, hell, even when he was around though not really “present”, the kid and I would adventure together. We have a unique bond that only children and full-time moms can create. He is my light and joy, and though he is a sarcastic teen now, we are still deeply connected.

So, I do miss his presence in the house, but he needs to see how his father really parents without me there. He also needs to see what is really going on in his father’s life, even if that means learning to understand how to now address a girl that the kid always viewed as an older sister. I am not certain if he will see her as a “mother” figure now, or if the relationship will simply be confusing.

My roommate, and woman who professed to be my “best friend” has also moved on. She has never had strong regard for my feelings in our relationship, and I fully accepted this when I asked her to move in with me. The offer was meant to help her find her heart again. It was a new hurt when she chose to befriend the family members of as well as the girl who so deeply scarred my life, but while unexpected, I suppose it is not altogether out of character.

I am happy that she has found joy in the relationship that I set her up with. I am concerned for her dog that does not seem to get out very much, but I am grateful to not have the constant worry that something is going to happen to the poor animal while in my home or yard.

Now, the real blessings, for me. I am no longer afraid to come home. For quite some time, especially after my son moved out, I felt like an outcast under my own roof. I felt that the classes I taught, the people that I invited in, were an annoyance to my roommate. I felt as though I was responsible for her unhappiness and I tried hard to for several months to suppress who I was in order to make her feel more comfortable.

The energy is so much clearer now though! I feel that I can breathe without worry. And, with a clear house comes a clear head, and renewed energy to make my life my own at last.

My home is open to all of the wonderful women who dance here. I am also thrilled to invite men and women who write for gatherings and sharing ideas. As things progress I will be opening the doors to do tarot readings and host open discussions on art, writing, and other subjects. I have a gallery wall to share with new artists looking to sell their work as well. The Red Tent nights are a monthly gathering that I created as a gift to my roommate, to make her feel more comfortable, that I never expected to find so much joy in even after her desire to attend had waned.

I feel as if I can breathe and that every breath brings more positive energy into my home. Please contact me if you find any of this enjoyable! My home is open to all positive energy!

Connectors Need to Feel Connected Too

Connections. We all have them. We are connected to family by bloodlines, marriage, and adoption. We are connected to friends through school, community, interests, and lifestyles. We are connected to work, and hobbies, and so many other sectors of community. What about those of us who are the connectors though. If that did not make you tilt your head in query, you might be a connector, like me.

I am forever bringing people together. Some of my favorite moments have been when two of my connections meet and connect on a much deeper level. I love that moment when they realize they are just meant to be together. I am not exclusively discussing romantic connections here. I have had students who meet in class and go on to form sister-like bonds. I have had business or creative acquaintances meet on projects that I have headed and they become the best of allies. It is a beautiful thing.

But what happens to the relationship I had with the individuals on their separate levels? Typically, I end up as the odd man out. On most occasions I do not mind this so much. It is what it is. I did my job in their lives. I served a greater purpose. But what about those connections I felt were deep and meaningful? I am at a loss. I feel a twinge of jealousy as ego rears its head. I feel left out when I see that these people get along so swimmingly. I feel left out when I am no longer invited along.

Recently, I had brunch with a fellow connector. We realized that there needs to be a sort of connectors support network. We do so much for so many others but when they move on, where are we? We enjoyed one another’s company and decided that even if it would be just we two, that would be enough. It is so hard to tell the people we have connected over the years how it hurts us when that connection we perceived comes to an end. We don’t want the real connections to lose strength because of us, but we would like the gentle nod of thanks and maybe to be invited into the fold now and again to experience the fruits of our labors of love.

Stay connected.

bint Hazine Auditions Beginning Soon!

As we continue to grow and change as a troupe and as members of the Phoenix bellydance community there are always new things to discover. bint Hazine will be opening auditions this Fall for the 2015 dance year! We will be seeking dancers willing to work as hard as they play, who understand that a troupe is more than learning a choreography in a group. bint Hazine is a sisterhood and with that comes a closeness that requires empathy and support for one another. We welcome women of all ages though our current members are in their 30’s and 40’s. Mature youths, as well as the young at heart are welcome.

Auditions will be Monday evenings and hosted in the home studio of AbeebA Korsana, in Glendale. Current and former students of AbeebA who have completed at least three sessions are invited to audition. A showcase of your talents will include; a one minute freestyle dance with music of troupe’s choice, demonstration of three of the five core bint Hazine songs, and a brief and fun interview by some of the current troupe members.

If you have been a member of the troupe before, please feel free to audition at this time as well! We miss you!

Troupe requirements for 2015 will be explained during the audition process. For more information on bint Hazine, classes with AdeebA Korsana, or belly dance in general please follow us on Youtube.com/easalle or Facebook.com/bint.hazine

Shimmy on!

Write Broken, Live Whole

Write drunk, edit sober. Hemingway and his words of broken-man wisdom. I want to write like a broken man. I want to write like a woman torn in two. I want to write like a soul dragged through hell and left at the feet of Saint Peter. I want to write like a mind rendered mad by the trials of life. I want to write like a beaten god, and a fallen angel. I want to write like there is a fever in me.

But. I do not want to be that broken vessel.

I want to be whole. I want to be innocent. I want to be free of the burdens of the earth and harsh reality. I want to be solid. I want to be stable. I want to be sober. I want to be sane. I want to be a heart unbroken and a mind unshattered. Remove the splinters of the days past. Be the child that only dreamed the nightmares I have lived. Let the dis-ease pass away.

I have been sober too long. I have been editing too long. I have lost sight of the glory of the madness and let it consume, rather than fuel me. Push, to be what they want. Push, to be what I think they want. Push. Fall. Let go. Be the madness, the master. Enslave the sanity.Stop letting them know what to expect.

In the Wings

As the emergence continues, the pattern of the wings begins to take shape. The image is not clear, but the colors grow brighter, less muddied in the light of the sun. The antennae twitch in search of what awaits.

How many can say they have known a friend for more than twenty years? How many can say they have been a friend for even half that time? I wrote on the falling apart of my marriage and some friendships last time, this time I want to focus on that which is sprouting from the wreckage.

As I prepare to take over care and payments on a house that I once shared with my husband of nearly sixteen years, I realize I do not want to do this on my own. I am independent, I enjoy my space, I have experienced stretches of time where I raised my son alone, but I do not want to right now. I need an ally. As events would have it, I am given one.

She is my dearest friend and trusted companion, a woman who experienced the daily and the strange in my life. Our paths have been similar before, even when not divergent. This though is a new trail the Universe has blazed and wants for us to travel side by side.

In May, her marriage too began to crumble away. She at first thought to try to make it on her own in a new state, a new place, somewhere away from the hurt she experienced. I realized, that this should be a sign. Through much discussion and the advice of others, we are moving to help one another.

At the end of January I will fly once more to Central New York to join her. Together we will make the drive that I made fourteen years before. The first time, my husband, small child and two cats made the drive in four days to start a new life. Now, my best friend, her young dog and I will attempt to make the trip in three days or less.

I am excited. I am terrified. I am intrigued by the timing. Our new adventure will begin as the Chinese year of the horse opens and we will find ourselves in Arizona as the Spring of that new year blooms. What does it mean?

Too many things have aligned in these last few months to be coincidence. Lay it on me Universe! I am ready!